In just 336 hours, I hand my first born over to be under
the care of others. I may be a little shaky with my math skills, (remember, I
was more of a socializer) but who's counting. Okay, I'm not that obsessed that I'm counting down hours, but I am
counting down the days. In 2 weeks, my
child will start a new chapter. . . PRESCHOOL! I wish more than anything that I could be the parent that is jumping for
joy and making up back to school, or in my case off to school jingles and jigs
about shipping my kid off, but I'm not. It's only preschool though, so we've got a ways to go. I refuse to give up hope yet.
I have been so fortunate to be able to stay at home with
my girls. This has by far been the most
rewarding, challenging, tiring job that I have ever had. Parenting in general
is, but I love it. I smile a lot, laugh
a lot, and some days I just want to cry. I worked in a daycare for a little over 16 years. I was the teacher that you would hand your
child over to, and I'd tell you on their first day that everything was going to
be okay. . . and it was. It was great. Now
that I'm on the other side of the fence, handing my child over, it's a whole
different ballpark. Although, my kid thinks it's pretty awesome. For months now she has been saying that she's
going to "college". Woah! Slow down! You're only three and you're going to
preschool for a whopping two mornings, and a total of six hours a week ('Cause
that's all your mother can handle right now.)
Last week a "Welcome to Preschool" letter
arrived in the mail for Lanie. Even though I wanted to cry I put on a damn good
front, and I jumped up and down with excitement right beside her. The letter suggested some essential items to
start the school year off with, one being a backpack for storing artwork. She did not hesitate when saying she wanted a
butterfly backpack. You bet your butt I
ordered her one that night. Not only
with butterflies, but with her name sewn on.
When it came in the mail we opened it, the jumping up and down with
excitement started all over again. Then,
I excused myself to go to the bathroom where I cried for a minute, and came out
jumping up and down with my excited face on. I can tell you this much, becoming
a parent has brought out a whole other side of me that I never knew
existed. I'm a sap.
On a good note, I'm very happy that she is so excited to
go off to preschool. I know she will do
great. The time away will be good for both of us, and maybe she'll stop drawing
"friends" on my back door with sticky Popsicle sticks (her latest
hobby). I give it a month, and I'll bet
my three year old has a better social life than me, and that's okay. . . I'll probably
be exhausted from driving her around to play dates anyway.